I had Juneteenth off, spent a vacation day to get yesterday off, and had today off per usual. Tomorrow I will start the weekend shift followed by two more days off. I mowed the lawn in ninety plus heat on Thursday and I thought I was fine but the last few days I've been taking naps. I almost never take naps. I also had a hard time sleeping last night and I'm a bit of a space cadet today. I really don't think I gave myself heat exhaustion but I'm having a hard time coming up with a better explanation.
Life, bodies, and epistemology are all weird. On a few occasions I have done hard enough leg work outs that I've fallen over the next day from bending down. These falls were unexpected and reflected that the maximum force my legs could sustain at a certain angle was less than my body weight. I didn't know this till I fell and I didn't understand it till I fell twice. My legs were at half strength by my best estimation. Until reality demonstrated that I just thought they were very sore. I had to learn what my body was capable of. I take a certain comprehension of my own capacities for granted and it's weird to be reminded that it's all testing and inference.
I had a pain in the top of my foot for a few months a few years back. It was a brief, sharp, stabbing sensation that felt like somebody had pushed a needle into my skin; except that I give platelets regularly and I know how much needles hurt. This was significantly worse than the needle. It was always brief; lasting at most a minute and usually around six seconds. I suspect it was a pinched nerve that was caused by my tying my shoes too tight and that I fixed it by not tying them as tight. The thing is that I can't actually remember if I made that change or if that fixed it. I just remember the excruciating problem and I can't remember it coming up in the last year. The story of why it went away feels entirely post hoc when I examine the belief. Did I fix the problem or did it go away on its own?
I'm tired now because of over exerting myself two days ago. I would have said I was being slow and lazy when mowing that lawn. The grass was high enough that I couldn't go very fast without the engine stalling even if I wanted to but still it felt like I was deliberately trying not to sweat more than the heat necessitated. I thought I succeeded. The timing seems suspicious but in my heart I really think I just didn't over do it. Yet, when I consider why I think I feel this way I still feel like heat exhaustion is the best explanation. It's not actually a contradiction to believe that it is the best answer and still feel like it's wrong. The largest wedge on a pie chart can be less than fifty percent. A best explanation can be regarded as probably wrong if every other explanation is worse. I could go get a full medical work up in an attempt to understand why I'm so tired but I'll probably just take more naps. If it persists at the current level for months I'll do something. If it gets significantly worse I'll do something. Right now I'm just annoyed by the perceived betrayal of my body that said it was fine and now seems to think I have a problem.