About a week ago I had a rather strange computer problem where my laptop would connect to the WiFi and act like it had internet access but wouldn't load web pages. This was a problem with the laptop since the WiFi work fine with other devices and it was not specific to the browsers. It also went away for an inconsistent amount of time when I restarted said laptop which put me in this weird position of having to decide between attempting fixes and just restarting the silly thing. The average time till restart seemed like two hours but it was highly variable and it seems to have to do with loading new pages because on at least one occasion it kept loading a Youtube video that I'd started before the internet went down. That's really odd, right? Because it definitely wouldn't load new pages but I got through the last ten or more minutes of the video. Anyway this happened for a few days and I tried a bunch of fixes and none of them seemed to work then the problem just went away on its own for like a week. Today it looks to have reappeared. Who can say how often I have to restart today? At least once obviously. How about tomorrow? Restarting is a three to four minute interruption. Trivial for the amount of time that I get to use the internet after most restarts especially considering the week long absence. Is a fix even worth pursuing given the unknown level of difficulty versus the inconvenience?
Apathy has a negative connotation but if you actually break down the phrase it means absence of suffering. "A" as in apolitical or amoral means absence and "pathy" as in pathos means suffering. When you choose to rise above something it is achieving equanimity and inner peace. When others find themselves in bad circumstances and accept it that's apathy and quietism. I was recently in a situation of say medium badness, imagine if an entire day of work had been for nothing and you weren't getting payed for it levels of bad, and this situation was say seventy percent other people's fault and thirty percent my own. I seethed about this situation for maybe an hour and then chose apathy. It was a conscious choice and in that sense I could call it equanimity or some other word that sounds more positive but it was the same thing. Resigned to my and other people's carelessness I actually managed to stop thinking about it pretty quickly. As it turned out the problem was resolved in my favor anyway by other parties so even the brief stewing was uncalled for. Sometimes life knocks you down and then helps you up.
Different day, different problem. I'm choosing apathy again, at least for the moment. This laptop is fairly new and I feel slightly betrayed by this dysfunction but mostly I'm just resigned to somethings being out of my control. Is this the Dao or learned helplessness and is there a difference between the two beside how much frowning one does after something bad happens?