GMT says otherwise but I am where I am and it's March.

 

Emotional purge of a month. So much dug out. Thanks for being there for me E2, it's taken 16 years but I do feel like I can rely on you.

 

March does feel like more of an ending than December, and April does feel more like a beginning than January. Call me a fool call me what you will but I think the Chinese are right about this one. A toast to the new year. Or new something.

 

First shower in 3 days felt like a damn baptism. Disillusioning bittersweet disappointment for me, but a cause for celebration for everyone around me. But then I felt remarkably better. Like I didn't know how much I needed to feel clean until I did feel clean. Is this why all those marks choose religion? Or just one of the fringe benefits? Freedom of mind by way of illusion. I can see the appeal.

 

I don't know what I'm going to do but it doesn't matter. Enough getting caught up in the past

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Once upon a time there was an enchanted princess who lived in a magical castle in a fairytale kingdom in Old Europe. Her name was Razibelle. She had everything she wanted and more, however, she was not allowed to leave the castle. When she was born, the king and queen had a banquet. They had in invited everyone except for a very wicked witch…

I believe in nothing
I am the fire that burns eternally
I am the fire that spreads quickly
I am the fire spares none

I am truly the everlasting flame
That which draws from what is eternal and absolute
I will burn as bright as if I were the sun itself
This is a certainty

I am the inferno that levels houses
As if they were always dense and moist nature
Whence my fire flourishes
For easily does wood catch ablaze

The concept of nihilism

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